Friendliness

Ok I was in the Topeka library the other day just hanging out waiting for my dad to get done with his appointment at the doctors. I had my headphones in listening to my iPod as I was walking out. And as I was walking a young man was kind of walking beside me. He asked me how I was doing and it really surprised me. No, it didn't just surprise me, it freaked me out. I didn't know how to react. I ended up replying that I was doing fine and kept on walking. I'm sure the guy meant no harm but I am not as trusting as I once was.

The tables have been turned

So I'm back in Kansas for a few weeks. I found myself very confused about how I felt as I flew over Kansas City.

I saw this car driving through... well I don't know what because there were no lights on the ground except the car's headlights. And all I could think is why is this person driving somewhere where there are no lights? I mean is he driving through a field or what? I've gotten so used to seeing street after street of lights. Seeing houses and cars and every crack in the pavement. And seeing the dark and knowing not to walk in those areas. I've gotten so used to it that coming "home" seems strange. I feel weird about feeling weird about it. I feel like this isn't home any more. And I feel like California isn't home either. So I'm stuck in between two places and don't know what to feel any more.